Delay. No. More...
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If there was a way to delay my opening, as a person, as indefinitely as they are doing with Spiderman the musical on Broadway, I would do it. If there were a way to put the critics on hold and be sure that what I've created of myself would be the best possible representation of my self, I would do it. If there were a way to ensure when I spoke I would only speak the truth, I would implement that immediately. If I could take a pill to be certain I would never contradict myself, and would cease to move forwards then backwards in a never ending process of self discovery and rediscovery, I would gladly take it. If I could possibly validate my substance with a branded certificate of authenticity, one easily recognizable to the masses, I would. If I could form of myself a perfect product, packaged and formulated according to an ancient family recipe passed down through the generations, I would.
But, I must accept I am by nature, fluid, ever changing, growing, learning.... And though I live in a consumeristic world, surrounded by brand names and guarantees, I am not to be easily packaged and consumed. As long as I seek to wrap myself with definition and find my place on your shelf - oh world- I shall never move beyond limitation and find a sense of personal freedom.
So, I'm not going to delay my opening, in fact it seems inevitable, that as I continue to explore my many permutations and interests, I will unfold - I just only hope to resist the temptation to clamp down this unfolding into a particularly recognizable role for the sake of anyone other than me.
I am not going to delay the opening, as flawed and imperfect as anyone might say it is- I am human, not merely a product for consumption.